The Facade

Are we accepted for who we are? If you tore off all the layers that you place on before you walk out the door, even the ones that you wear just for yourself to pretend that everything is OK and hide the mess that is underneath would you be able to live with yourself? Would anybody else??

So often today we hide behind the facade of the perfect person, with the perfect life, we hide behind nice big houses with beautiful views that we hardly even notice. We buy the latest coolest products, wear the right clothes and keep up with the latest gossip just so we will fit in. We plaster on a smile so people will accept us, will like us and wont know that at home everything is broken, that we are unhappy with our life choices and that inside we are falling apart we aren't perfect! Shock horror!!

So what happens if we tear down the facade, if we are honest with ourself and say 'I am not OK'?? Prepare to find out who your real friends are... Prepare for your life to be turned upside down...Prepare to be rejected, despised, ignored.... Just look at Job a once well respected man was turned on by everyone even his wife, his friends suggested he was wicked, evil, that he had done something wrong, that he deserved it, that he hurry up and quit mourning, and even that God hated him. Nothing has changed this is what we face today.

But don't let me put you off there are good things too you finally get to accept yourself, yes it takes work, but you will begin to learn to live with your real flawed self. It is only when you accept your flaws and your utter hopelessness that you can truly cry out "How long o Lord? How long?" as David does in the psalms time and time again and beg for God to come and lift you out of your misery. It is only when you can be honest with yourself that you can be truly honest with God. This is an opportunity to relate on a totally different level with God, you are open and hungry for Him, desperately desiring for Him to fill you, utterly reliant on Him, knowing that only He is in control and only He can get you out of this hole.

This is a bit of an obscure piece that I wrote sometime ago when I was really struggling and stuck by the phenomenon of the Facade.

The Facade

She plasters a smile on her face

Tells everyone she is OK

Because a long time ago she learnt

to give people what they want

And they want to know she is OK.

The Facade became so real

She begun to believe it herself

the only crack the scars on her wrist.

She soon forgot who she was

Is the smile real?

Or is she more than this?

Is there another girl on the inside crying out in pain?

The voice of the little girl long forgotten grows louder

crying out in pain

and soon she begins to question the facade

She tries to rip off the disguise,

to show people who she really is

but they don't like this girl and her pain

they prefer the fake smile,

that girl was more fun

Torn and confused she puts the mask back on

hides the little girl inside

who cries herself to sleep each night

She keeps the pain and the memories to herself,

let's no one in

Until one day the little girl inside demands to be released

the captive set free

Both lost to a world that didn't want to see the truth

Because they didn't like what they saw